Pete Hindle

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NO END-OF-YEAR LISTS, NOT EVER

Why have I been writing game reviews on my blog? Because I need to kickstart the writing process somehow. I need to make the little cursor go across the screen sometimes, and to make the clickety-click noise with the keyboard sometimes, because otherwise I feel rubbish.

I joined a book group this year. It’s not what I was expecting; on my second visit I got invited to Hooters. It’s also not a very focused book group – one of the participants often spends time trying to throw things into the cleavage of the woman who organises it. But it’s pretty much my only chance to get conversations outside of my family unit.

So the reviews are just a way of starting to get some mental stimulation going before I write something else. I wrote a NaNoWriMo book this year, which took a fair amount of dedication, and I’m really not very happy with it. I think the format of NaNoWriMo stopped me from really exploring the things that I would want to get better at with writing, and instead caused me to focus on the things that I can just produce in bulk. In terms of getting better at writing, it was a failure. In terms of getting something like a book under my belt, it was a success.

But that’s why I don’t want to do an end-of-year list. I see a lot of blogs doing them, and I don’t think they have a great amount of interest. Perhaps if people really like music, or they are blogging about a particular topic, then the list format could be used to recap what just went before. But I’m not interested in that, and that means that I’ll never kickstart writing my crapping out a list of top tunes here. I still have a few games to write about.

Also, if I write anything more interesting, I run the risk of catching my parents reading it when I walk into the living room. Hi Mum, hi Dad! *Waves*.

New Page: Mac Software Suggestions

I get a lot of people asking me about Mac Software, so I’ve put up a web page where I can list my recommendations. Find it on the top of this webpage, or click here to see it.

If you have suggestions, or you think I’ve missed something out, let me know. You can either leave a comment or use the Contact page.

The Storyteller’s Voice

I’ve been trying to write a blog post about my illness, specifically about the night that I nearly died, for a while now. It’s a story I’ve told to my friends over and over again, and despite it’s grim subject it’s something I can rely upon to have people laughing out loud.

Trying to make that story come alive in writing is something completely different. I don’t know why – maybe I’m just not good enough with written words. But whatever the reason, I just can’t make the story really ‘pop’ when I need it to. Parts of it that are hilarious when spoken out loud come across flat and dull when in a written form, and after a few separate attempts to squeeze it onto a page I’ve given up.

One of the reasons it’s such a fantastic story is that I’ve told it so many times. I now live far away from my friends, and aside from a small number of people I keep in touch with via email and phone calls, I don’t see a lot of people. When I do get back to Newcastle, I usually go on a socialising splurge, trying to fit in seeing as many people as possible. This usually means updating people on why I’ve been away, and/or what’s wrong with me, and why I get so tired now, and to help me do this I fall into a shpeel which rattles through various points of my health failure until I reach the present.

But this shpeel, this story, isn’t really being told in my usual conversational voice. It’s a tale that I tell people, something I share with them, and when it’s finished I stop being a storyteller and talk with them. I like to find out what they’ve been up to in the months that I’ve been away. The storytelling “voice” I use when relating my tale is similar to the written style I use here on my blog – which, again, is not the real me.

The best blogs are blogs that have a focus, like Lee’s printmaking blog, or Mike’s blog about his trip to the birthplace of Russian Anarchy, or Brenda’s blog on her photography practice. Currently, when I blog I have no real focus but to tell an amusing story, and in doing so I’ve let the story-tellers voice become confused with my own when working (and writing) online. I actually get a lot of compliments about my blog, and the style of writing that I’ve used on it, which is really lovely. But I need to try new things.

I’m not sure what those new things are, but I have to stretch myself. Writing in this semi-voice, this tonal range that sounds like me but isn’t quite, is starting to impose limits on the things I can say – and  the things I can’t. So it’s time to change.

I went to Newcastle and all I got was this lousy fatigue-based medical issue

Last Thursday I went back to Newcastle for the first time since November. I spent a short weekend back, celebrating a close friend’s birthday and gathering some of my possessions (because I’ve been living out of a backpack for the past five months).

Although I thought I was ready to start getting out again, I’ve found myself completely flattened by the experience. I guess I have to be a lot fitter – a lot healthier – then I am now, before I can pick up my old life. The only way I can explain it is like when you’re tired after some hard exercise. Except I don’t pick up after resting. This is my third day of resting up after my trip, and I’m still very weary.

Which really sucks, because the last thing I want to do is be stuck on the couch.

I might put a few posts up explaining what happened to me, as my medical crisis was both hilarious and gory. So when I can unstick myself from the couch, where I’m watching my way through these Star Trek box sets I brought back, I’ll update my blog with something a little more exciting than a post about shoes.

Addendum: I’m not actually that happy with this entry (hey – no links and no pictures?! Does this still qualify as a blog post?) but I’m just so knackered right now that it’ll have to do. It’s not like I can improve it with a picture of my couch.

Complimentary Verbage

I set myself a few goals regarding blogging after I got back on my feet. One of those was that I wanted to write more, and to write intelligently about topics that I find interesting, such as the uses of technology and science fiction. So far I’ve almost been keeping to a schedule.

What really slows me down, however, are compliments.

Weirdly, if somebody says that they enjoyed something I wrote, then I get a sort of blockage that takes a few days to pass. Actually it’s not a blockage, but more a written version of diarrhea where I try and use all my fanciest words at once. I have some sort of internal editor that runs along the same aesthetics as Henry Rollins, so the combination of trying to write like a man holding a quill whilst thinking like a DC punk causes me some problems.

I regard fancy words (or ‘long words’, as some people refer to them) to be used as a weapon of last resort OR a shortcut across academic terrain. Seeing as I’m in the process of completing a Masters of Research (now on hiatus for obvious reasons), and with my stated aim of talking about technology and scifi, I figure I’m allowed to use a few of the longer words in my vocabulary.

The trick will be in making it not dull…

100th Post!

This is my one hundredth post. I’d like to say that I’ve got something either deep or meaningful to say, but I’ve just been staring at the blank pages of a word processor today for so long that I’m without anything interesting to share.

Time Passes without Updates…

Project Proposal, Feasibility Study, and Nifty Diagram

This blog entry might not look like a lot, but there is a fair amount of words to chew through in the linked files.

  1. project-proposal-dm-pete-hindle-v2
  2. weeks-project
  3. feasibility-study

These files relate to the ongoing work of Unnamed Laboratory, and to my coursework within the Digital Media unit. As such, they are here as much for reference as for reading. If you decide to use them in your own work, or reference them in some manner, they are licensed under the Creative Commons Share-alike Non-commercial Attribution License, and you should check that you are using it within those terms.

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Back to Work

The past few weeks have been an excruciating battle against my attention span, as I have attempted to hand in several really important pieces of work for my university course.

However, with that hand in comes the period where I can actually readjust and get back to work. And I kind of think that there is a lot of work that can be done now.

Firstly, the main core of my work this year – my university project that will feed into and fuel the Unnamed Laboratory project. Over the next few days I’m supposed to be doing a lot of reading, related to a definition of New Media, and then after that I’m heading off to Berlin for a period of research.

This is all very exciting, but the Unnamed Laboratory project is something that’s going to take longer than just a few months at a university. And that means that I’ll be sorting out this website to make sure the aims of the project can be represented in the best way.

I’m also pleased to announce that I’ve been joined in the project by Brian Degger, who is a long-term collaborator. While the description of the project is still a bit nebulous, we’ll be drafting a document to explain what’s going on, the work we’ve already undertaken, and what we plan to do next.

Unnamed Signage

I’ve just finished writing a small program that generates our website banner. I’m not a great programmer, by any means, but I’m pretty proud of this program. It’s been a long evening where I could have blamed my lack of programming skills on a stinking cold and slouched off to bed at any point, but by creating a program to make the above banner I think hope I’ve saved work later on.

For now, you can refresh to see the subtle yet intricate changes, or download the program yourself to dissect how it works.

unnamed_signage (Processing Sketch)